and has a video camera to boot.

“hello caller! you have just won a $500 voucher by durex! how does that make you feel?”

and naj got in on the action too. oh, the sort of friends i have.

god, that song always does it for me.

anyway, since it all a well-known fact that my ‘creative period’ is between midnight and 3.30am, i have decided on a new routine to get more work done. i’ll take a nap when i get back from school, from after dinner to about half to midnight. then i’ll have a nice cool shower, a spot o’ milk tea that my sister will brew up for me cause she makes good tea and slug it out till 3.30am, after which, i will sleep and wake up when the sun in shiny to go to school. we’ll give it a week. we’ll see how it goes.

you know one more thing i’m going to give a week? my new nickname. zen. oh the irony. zen is the last thing to describe me – me and my vulgarities. but we’ll give it a week. call me zen. it’s like calling the big guy there lil’ tony. or that small fella big jim. you know where i’m going with this.

fa1 is well on it’s juju way and i have a feeling that it’s going to be bashed for being too fluffy tomorrow at consults. not that i really care. but it is a grade. and it is sad tog et your storise bashed down like a nut. okay, now i’m not too confident.

naj and i had donuts today. sat on a bench like donut ladies and ate. it wasn’t messy at all. cream and filling didn’t go where it shouldn’t have been. (eh, eh, eh)

oh well, i ought to be getting back to work. my muses are reporting for duty.

oh yeah, oh yeah! scott’s birthday was a couple of days back, and since he’s in north carolina (or is it south?) i couldn’t send a gift. so him and i spent the afternoon (and early wee morning there) coming up with the most awesome imaginary gift ever.

spy-banjongos

yeah those are the best. orange, shiny and round. and capable of murder and musical moments – a bongo and banjo in one. i love it. scott loves his gift. all’s well.

oh yeah. one last thing to leave you with. i think paramedics are hot stuff. and waiters. and, well yeah, that’s all i’ll let on. well at least there’s that.

❤

naj passed me the link for him on the note that he looks a lot like dan. but for hell’s sake, he has the voice of a fucking angel. okay, maybe not an angel. just a really good sexy voice. like good good. and i love the ending of the video. you know, if things go well, i think it’d be majorly awesome to fly him in for my wedding. okay, no, don’t laugh. i’m serious. and really, this guy’s just amazing.

anyway, the weekend’s been interesting. slept over at the grandma’s, watched cable till late, woke up late and my dad took my sister and i to the birdpark (vip entrance, yo). the birdpark was fun. owls are well, owls, but i want an eagle owl as a pet. nana and i will share. and vultures are creepy and eagles are awe-inspiring and ducks are cute. oh. and johnny the parrot is mean. turned his ass on us, said ‘bye bye’ and never turned back. awful.

back to fa1 and the joy of alex cornell.

1. ten clothe hangers
2. her water bottle that’s been missing for two weeks
3. files and papers from last sem under the desk, wedged in a corner
4. her striped socks
5. pink paint
6. a box of matches
7. people’s name cards
8. her shades
9. her belt buckle
10. a piece of mind

i’m pretty sure there’s more to be discovered.

last call for movie goers tmr. give me a ring if you decide to turn up or if your schedule clears.

it’s all very messy right now. my room’s in a mess. it hasn’t been this messy in a long time. but i think it’s only because i haven’t been home enough to take care of it. and most of the time, i’m asleep in the bed up front rather than in my own.

but it’s all really messy now. so be ready for a messy post.

about ten minutes ago, i logged back into my blogger and read a lot of my old posts. most of them are from earlier this year and it’s crazy really. a lot of what happened back then are no longer happening now. a couple of stuff that were going on back then are slowly resurfacing this sem. but all in all, it’s different. i’m different, we’re all different and i’m no good with change.

i’ve said this many times over, and i actually forgot about it till a day or so back when i was zoning out and it came back to me.

it used to be simpler.

i was once of a boat. a ferry, rather. and it had like a deck, which is rare on ferries. but this was an awesome shit ferry. anyway, i was there with a friend. we used to be close and all that, and there we were, just standing there, in the middle of indonesia and singapore, with nothing but miles and miles of open water in front of us. it was a beautiful day and the end of a good weekend trip with our families. and the sun was setting.

but the point here is that up on that deck, in the middle of no where literally, and with someone i was so comfortable with, it was perfect. there are not many moments in life that i can look back upon and call perfect. but that evening, it was.

there was no need for conversation. there were no expectations, no hopes and dreams, no nothing. and it felt amazing. i remember saying to him that i never wanted to leave. that one day i’d buy myself a boat and i’ll go out and sit for hours and not want to come back. he looked at me and smiled and said nothing.

it’s been, what, three years. i haven’t seen him since, and while i have been on ferries and boats, it’s never quite been the same. and i miss it. but it’s one of those moment you keep.

anyway, now is a messy time and while things could be worse, a part of me wishes they could be just a tad bit better. i’m just rambling here cause really, there’s no one else to ramble on to. everyone has their own load of shit to deal with and that’s okay.

i really should tidy up my room.

if you manage this, and i truly don’t think you can, find an entry titled ‘paperclips’ from the old blog. that sums this up nicely.

i feel like taking the weekend off. like, a trip to bali. i’m fucking serious. a trip to bali is extremely tempting.

there are several other things that are especially tempting now but it’s only because i’m upset and in a mess. it’d get better soon.

wednesdays exhaust me.

part 2 makes me sad.

hello, hello.

i like frank. frank is the current flavour of the week. or hour. it depends really. if your call comes through. if you get my drift.

anyway, please keep friday free if you’re into horror movies like peter and i are. peter and i looooooooove horror movies. we jolly well do. but here are the details.

friday, 23rd nov
6 to 11pm
ngee ann lt 51-03
$5
shutter and ju-on

please come. it’d be good. email/text/call me for tickets.

i can’t wait to get past wednesday cause thursday and friday are in the plans to be gooood.

a couple days ago, sarah and i met up for dinner and christmas lights viewing. and that was a huge ass big tree.

sorry i was half an hour late. i’ll make up for it with the shopping trip next week. tiffany & co, here we come (: